Introduction

Most people at the age of 27 would be thinking about their futures. Some may have already established themselves in their chosen careers. Some may even be starting a family and some may already have a family. But for me, it was different. For me the age of 27 was the pinnacle of my life.

For most people, the best part of their lives would be high school, some would say college. Being the unusual me, that wasn't the case. I was occasionally bullied during the later parts of grade school and most of high school. In college, since people are a little more mature, from being bullied, I was ignored, almost invisible. I always blamed it on my size. I was chubby during my childhood, obese as I entered adulthood.

Don't get me wrong, I had friends.  But their the type of friends that the popular kids don't get to hang out with. The geeky types. The type of people that hangs out in libraries or in parts of schools where we don't get to be seen by the popular one's for fear of being ridiculed and bullied.

Due to certain family circumstances, I was able to finish up college at the age of 25(My "Graduating from College at the age of 25" is a different story. LoL!). For most, they'd be graduating at the age of 21 or 20 if they started their education early. This is yet another peculiar thing that happened to me.

My family would be the type of family that follows strictly on the way of life. My parents were the one's who follows this path - Go to school, get a job, save money, get married, have a family. This path worked to all my 2 brothers and 3 sisters. They're now all living in the states and have their own families. During my college days, for fear of being figured out by my Dad who used to be in the military, I'd ask my lesbian friend to act out as my girlfriend and whenever we are at home, we would play all sweet and cuddly when in reality, we know who we really are.

I've had intimate relationships here and there with girls. But then again, the word intimate for me at that time was different. Especially when it is something that is forced on you by pressure coming from expecting parents.

As a kid, I've been surrounded by toy guns, cars, trucks, helicopters, you name all the toys for the boys, I got it. I never held a doll nor a teddy bear. But I guess at the back of my mind I know I was different among the kids that I've played with.

I have always probably known that I was gay, it wasn't confirmed though till I entered college. Wait, let me rephrase that, I didn't accept it till I was college. But I wasn't the loud stereotyped gay(no offense to our brave gay citizens out there who are loud and proud.). I was pretty quiet. Discreet. Almost unnoticeable. It has been a tough battle of acceptance. But after accepting it comes the fun part. And that's where my story begins.